One and Only: Meh

31 May it is

Yeyy, sampai di penghujung Mei. Terima kasih, bulan ini cukup menyenangkan. Aku bisa banyak belajar dan bertumbuh 🌱

Untuk menutup bulan ini, aku pengen berterimakasih sama diriku sendiri. Consistency, for me, is a scary thing. I’m not really good at commitment. But I always try to fix my mindset about it. Doing monotone stuff day by day isn’t really my thing. I can’t even picture myself doing a 9-to-5 job. I love having my own rhythm and space—when I can recharge myself and reflect on everything around me — I can feel my authentic self.

So, this 31 Days Writing is really a challenge for me. A new way to learn. Even though I love journaling, I didn’t do it every day. Just when I feel like it. But this challenge encourage me to find meaning in everything, so I could write it down here. And it changed me. I mean slightly, I can appreciate every little thing in life. I could understand myself better. I could see my own perspective. Because I usually just write about my feelings. I thought that my perspective is just always there in my mind, I don't have to write it down. Because I thought it was an unconscious system. I could never change it. But, now that I can really write it down and re-read my perspective, I could be more objective. Like, I could literally see my mind and thoughts. I realize that I can choose every perspective that suits me. I could change. And I realize that I am a dynamic person. I could not be defined. And to not be defined, is my authentic self.